Day 1 of this blog, not day 1 of my journey

Weight loss. It’s a topic so popular it borders on mundane. Through Pinterest I have stumbled upon various other women who have documented their weight loss journeys via Instagram. Their stories are featured on The Weigh We Were  as well as Trimmed and Toned. The stories featured on these websites are great, but they generally just breeze through each woman’s struggle. We are presented with the shiny “after” photos alongside the painful “before” photos and each woman shares her tips and tricks very vaguely. I am starting this blog, because I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I have had various *brief* periods of time wherein I was able to successfully lose weight (not more than 10 to 12 pounds each time), but never able to keep it off. Each time I would lose weight, I would gain it back and then some. IT IS EXHAUSTING hating my body, refusing to be in photos, and not fitting into my clothes. Self-hatred is draining. I have reached a point in my life when this self-loathing is no longer acceptable for me. I have spent the majority of my adult life with a very twisted relationship with food. Food has been my drug of choice since I was a child. I probably should seek professional help at some point to help me work through my emotional eating, and I will eventually. Right now, this blog is my therapy. I want to publish my struggle. I am embarking on a lifestyle overhaul. Ladies and gentlemen: THIS IS NOT A DIET. So join me as I document my successes and failures. I am not trying to inspire anyone or show anyone else the “best” way to lose weight. Everyone is different. The strategies I use to lose weight might not work for you. My point is that we all need to engage in some self reflection and actually do the mental work to figure out what DOES work for us.

These photos were taken of me today, June 29. As of June 27, I weigh 176 pounds. I am 5’6″. I am nearly obese according to my BMI. I am trying to reach a goal weight of 140 pounds. On January 2, 2017, I weighed 188 pounds. I have lost 12 pounds since January. I have basically been stuck in a plateau since February 12. I have continually bounced from 172 to 180 in the past 4 months. I am frustrated!

Here are my other measurements as of today (06/29/17). My waist is 32″. My hips are 40″. My chest is 38″. My neck is 13″. My right bicep is 14″. My left thigh is 25.” Wow, writing that all down is depressing and also motivating.

 

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